I have been wanting to sit down and start a new blog, to start anew, create something that is more me, more what I wanted somedaisies to be, but I find myself stumped whenever I sit down to write a post. And this might be good, because my energy is focused elsewhere focused on stories floating around my mind, on how to make myself into who I want to be. Redirecting that energy is hard. Ok, lets be honest--finding the energy to direct in the first place was hard. So, I am moving forward, moving ever more forward.
I am trying to make smart decisions, trying to be wise while still listening to my heart. To do this I first had to free up my wallet. Next is to get my freedom back. A car that I trust. Work and school come next, and finally location. It is all about location. Riding home on the bus today I realized that I miss Santa Fe, miss it in a way that I cannot quite explain.
My fears about living in Santa Fe are that I would be alone. Wade and Marcia are here, my dad is gone, and I am no longer in touch with anyone there. I miss hiking, and the sky, and the hills. I miss the wind and the heat and the how you can be totally alone. It is really hard to find that here.
So, today I thought--Emme, go to school and then try to get a job there. It is really that simple. Get the MLIS and go one from there. While you are waiting look at Pacifica, and start on that Ph.D. Give eScience 3 months to sort out and if it is still miserable. Sell up and move somewhere. It is that simple.
Well, it is now anyways.
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